Long times i didn't post anything in this blog. suddenly, i think i wanna post about Father's Day last month. So, here it is!
Father's Day this year was quite silent for me, not gonna be like a few past years. Really sad to face this day. How i wish to see my daddy stand in front of me n i can hug him n wish him 'Happy Father's Day'. Miss my daddy a lot. I miss to chitchat with him, the day we can hang out together like every weekend we did before.
During this year Father's Day, i just celebrate at church , and that Sunday morning i need to dance, wow! actually , i'm really really sad that time, but i want to did my best for Abba, Father . That day, something bad was happened to me. I got my 'gastric'. oh no!
It's kinda spoil my day. I need to go home early but, haleluya, i got it right after i finish my ministry(dance).
That time at church, actually, i'm really sad, watched the video that made by Sis Annie, fuhh, it's made me in tears. All i can do, I just pray and ask God to wish my daddy, 'Happy Father's Day'.
Like every year i did to him, i will give him a simple card, but full of words that wish him a long lifes,happy always,have a good health..
But,I know, God love Him more, God didn't want to see him suffer anymore, that's the reason why . Honestly, at the first time, i really can't accept that my daddy will leave me forever n ever, i really blame God that time, i told God, 'why You take my daddy from me this early,why everything i ask in prayer not been answer,why You not heal him,why You can heal others people but not my daddy'..so many questions played in my mind that time. I really can accept all this. But, as God is so kind, He start talk with me, and suddenly, i remember the words that Jesus told Choo Nam in the book 'Heaven is So Real', He told, "IF I NEED TO TAKE ONE LIFES TO SAVE OTHERS,I WILL DO SO"..
And from that, i realize, how God love my dad n how He love my mom n my others siblings. Now i understand why all of this happened. Day by day have been passed, it's almost one year my daddy had left us. And when i remember about every moments i be with Him, it's teach me to be more strong to keep moving in my lifes. Next month will be my late daddy's birthday. hmm, hope i will not crying, but yes i am! i'm sure i will cry. All i can do , keep praying to God. Thank's God, cause i still have a family that always be there for me n a great B.A.S.I.C( bro n sis in Christ) that i've met, they teach me to be more strong. Haleluya!
So, my post for this time will be until here. God bless:)
