Saturday, January 16, 2010
Today, I'm getting well from fever. But still throat sore. Cough over again. What?? I don't like it. Hope to get well soon. So that I can scream again. Today, wake up early in the morning, cancelled my appointment with dentist, cuz' I'm still not in good condition. My mom advise me to postponed it something in next week. So, I just said, 'yes'. After that, breakfast with hot soup, make me fresh before took my medicines. Then, lunch time, I'm prefer to watched television only. No mood to eat. Still full, I think so. After that, I received a text from one sister in Christ, informed that my group take a place to dance for this Sunday services. Quite shocked cuz' I thought it not our turn yet. So, I'm quite stress also, cuz' there's no transport for me to go to church that time. I text all my other group, and two of them can't join. The story not end simply like that. It's continue with one more problem. At the same time, back up singer for Sunday service Zefanya's group. That's my group also! So how now?? Back up singer only 3 person(not include me) so, that's mean, I need to join them, but how about the dancers?? I can't let Grace to dance alone that time. Two of us, Joy and me in Zefanya's group, so that mean we can't dance.The schedule slack! How now?? I'm so stress, I feel weak again, can't stop thinking and can't stop crying. I text my besties Tinna, thank's God, she accompany me and advise me. That's why, sometimes it's hard to be at the 'LEADER' side. I'm not mend to be on that side and I'm not wish to be on that side. But, I know God have choosen me and I need to take that responsibility. I need to pray, need to ask Him which one I should take. But, most of my feeling more to back up singer. Doesn't mean I don't want to dance, I miss to dance. It's a long time I didn't dance for Him. It's just my condition now, I'm still weak after a high fever and migraine and I hope soon, I can dance again for Him. I decide that, tomorrow I will be back up singer so, no one dance. So, I hope everyone will understand, I'm not simply decide it, but I'm more to what God ask me to do so. Huhu :(( I really need someone to talk, to advise me and to accompany me right now.
Dear God, I know You always there for me.
1/16/2010 09:10:00 PM
